this weekend

i didn't hear any sound in the house...i hope to go away from there...
i can't concentrate....

my friend have settle the college problem...
but, i'm still need to wait...what to do?

wait for time

天天背着沉重的书包， 好累啊……
电脑，水瓶等等。。。。
天天都几乎需要六点多就爬起来…..
投降了……
背跟腿都好酸。。。。
何苦呢？

晚上，
想要做功课， 但却就是有心无力。
我好累，眼睛就快闭上来了。。。

但，却不想把电脑给关上。
好辛苦。。。。。

也许是很久没熬夜的关系吧。。。

原来

命中注定， 第一次的爱情不能开花结果。。。。
能相信吗？

李圣杰-位置
就反映出我的心声。

原来，从一开始，他觉得他都在迁就我

原来就是这样的。

not like that

he say out at last...
but in my worse condition...

i cant think of how i feel at that time....
if he think that's good, then just go ahead...
not like me...
i still will think of others,i knew what my friend told me is right..
"no need to think of others people feeling..."

maybe for him, it's right for him also
"settle own thing first, then just help others to settle things..."
it's right but not for every condition...

rent room

this is the second time ...
i stay in the outside rent room...
but i think this rent room is worse than the first rent room in Kepong there...
yesterday is my first day to stay at there...
cn't sleep well...
sleep on 1.16am but wake up at 3.48am...
OMG...i jz sleep 2 hours and 32 minutes....
how can i stay there for next few months...if everyday like that...

the room is so hot ....
while waiting the time to wash my clothes...
im thinking how to sleep well in everyday for next few months...

open the curtain or how? i don't know what to do...
can't get other ways....

make me miss my hostel now...
even now, i want go to toilet during night also not dare enough..
worry some guys will come out from their room suddenly...

whats my plan for every weekend?
no friends here...
all friends are separate now.....
some in hostel, some in home, some are like me stay in rent room or rent house..

now the time is 6.48am
some housemate is went to toilet including me...
i can't TAHAN...
so hot here
..

lastly, i open my door (3/4)
i felt cold now
cold wind blow into my room
sweat + wind = easily get sick...
of course, i worry got guy come into my room when he saw the door is open..
i wish to have some thing in my room so that i can protect myself if something happen...
i think some kind like spray is better..

i wish i can get the nice hostel successfully at last....
time to wash my clothes now....
end 7.03am

mind

his mom is stay in hospital now again.... in Fatimah hospital... how is she now? what happen to her? when she first sent into hospital, he ask me want to visit her or not... at that moment, I WONDERING... maybe u think i'm not good.. i don't know i need to visit her or not? i don't know she still not like me or not? ( even he told me his mom didn't care of his relationship now but i still feel not good towards his mom.) i knew that his mom don't like me based on my feeling... plus i'm not his someone anymore... i think not going is the wise decision... better take time in home and finish my things...