Sunday, May 31, 2009

31/5/2009 下午

今天,他打电话给我。
原来,他已看到我放在blog里的article.
他还问我要不要一起去打badminton.

唉…………………………………………
为何?
但是,他是出自于一番好意的。

原来,一切所发生的事情都是一场误会。现在,已经解决了。
但是,都是因为这一件事,它带给我一个想法。
他说的对,人有时是自私的。

他要我把blog里的名字给改掉,but I say no.


RAINBOW代表着七种颜色:红,橙,黄,绿,蓝,靛,紫。
红:活跃。
橙:活力。
黄:高兴。
绿:精灵。
蓝:悲伤。
靛:好奇。
紫:灰心。
而我们的人生就是充满着这七种颜色。

真糟糕!这两个星期,我该怎么过?
哈哈,也许这两个星期,我都会一直要在blog里写稿了。
真无聊。

槟城大学的成绩已出炉了,我还要在家里等待。他们被录取的学生也可以开始准备了。他们也可以放下他们的心头大石了。

在家里已经过了大概一个月半的时间,shopping, cooking, chatting, 都已过了。

5x6= 30/5/2009

30/5/2009 晚上
今天,他载我一起去买东西。
过后,我们还一起去公园。
在那静静地坐着,这根本不是他的作风。
因为他是一个非常好动的小孩,不对应该是说好动的青少年才对。
或许他看到我不高兴,所以也就只好在那陪着我吧。(I THINK)

我都不知道我今天怎么了,或者他并不明白为何我会那样的想,或者他并不了解我的感受。
很多或者了呀!

该怎么办?我突然觉得我真的好想大哭一场,眼泪都已流了出来。
今早,他跟我说他已中了SAMAN,我想糟糕了,以后等我做工才换给他好了。

当我们提起电话费,他也谈起他之前的电话费,我就只好不出声了。
我好像。。。。。。。。。。连我自己都不会形容,如果不是电话费,他也不会跟他家人吵架了。

他也不会给他姐姐说他乱花钱。

他刚才又打电话给我。
叫我早点休息。
还有原来大学的成绩是在六月的第三个星期出炉。

我想要去走山,想要去打球,想要去玩水,想要去逛街,想要去别的地方,想要去看新的风景。

我真的有很多个好想,但是并不能。以我的年纪,我还需要家人的同意。

还有,就是因为我是一个女生,不可以时常都往外跑。
反而,爸爸叫我去拉他的二胡。
至于那些钱,我会迟点才还给他的。
我想我太罗嗦了,什么事都提出来。
是不是有点闷?


现在,已是凌晨早上0.12 分了。

为什么他申请了这个blog account 又不用的?
我想知道。
好了,再见。


《心情》

它时好时坏,
无人能控制它,
除了自己。

它是受不同的人,
不同的事,
不同的环境所影响。

它属于每一个人,
每一个人也拥有着它。
永远都离不开对方。

它是一样多么奇妙的东西,
也就是因为有了它,
人生才会变得精彩。








Thursday, May 28, 2009

朋友的生日

28/5/2009 night

今天,他对我说了一番话。

这一番话跟他之前所说的完全不一样。

妈妈说的对,他也说他的道理。

我该怎么办?
现在,我只能选择等待。
我真的是一个笨小孩。

当妈妈问我什么事时,我不敢说,她还以为我在跟他吵架。

爸妈都叫我专心读书。
这件事过后……………………………………………….

我想通了,就算结果是如何,这全部都是我一手造成的。
是我自己,这与他无关的。

我跟他,我想我们也无法回到像从前那样。

那样地要好了。这全部都已变成我跟他之间的回忆了。
我............................................

自己的身体状况都已不好了,还想着在读书前可以在家里多补补身子,不然以后就得等到放假才可以多补。

但是,我现在都喝了很多冰水。
这不能怪他,也与他无关。

但是,他已算还好了,至少他有在旁陪着我。
我是指精神上。
Y I 称赞他呢? 还是在自我安慰我自己本人没看错人呢?
我不懂!

28/5/2009

今天已经是28/5/2009了。
已经两天了。
我想应该没事的。

爸爸说的有道理,以前读书挨夜,为的就是考好成绩。

当天

26/5/2009

今天,我在出门前,在蛋糕上刻了4个心形和一个像是玫瑰花的图案。

还在出门前才在卡上写上祝贺语。
很好笑吧!

他跟我说他晚上的时候看了那张卡很久,很高兴,高兴到睡不着觉。


昌杰,没事的,一定没事的。

前夕

生日的前夕
25/5/2009

今晚,我无意中看到5s1的CD,PREFECT’S PICTURE , N EVEN THE PICTURE OF THE FORM 5 PARTY.

IT IS SO MEMORABLE.

WAT A SWEET MEMORY.

初中五的照片就仅仅只有那么的一张.

HAIZ………………….

SO FUNNY.

为什么照片多数是他呢?
难道是我叫他save into CD ?
I CAN’T REMEMBER。
时间过得真快。

有时候,我觉得好累;有时候,我觉得很高兴。
高兴时,时间过得特别快;烦恼的时候,我就会觉得非常地痛苦与无奈。

为何呢?
我今年还未到20岁。
我们的路还很遥远哦!
我希望 时间可以过得快点,因为时间过得快点就代表我们过着忙碌又快活的生活。

我的这个想法很幼稚吗?

可能是我得空没事做的关系吧!(I THINK)

再过13分钟就是他的生日了,他会打电话给我吗?
还是他在等我的电话?

如果他在等我的电话,或许他会失望,因为电话费的关系。
Im sorry.
6 分钟。
5分钟。
4分钟。
3 分钟。
2 分钟。
1 分钟。
0.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHANG KIT,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU………………………………………….




Sunday, May 24, 2009

mom's birthday

24/5/2009

今天,我们在家跟妈妈一起庆祝生日。

一起吃cheese cake

其实,明天才是她的生日,我们提早跟她庆祝。

因为爸爸明早就要去工作了。



为什么?
为什么还是一直出现在我的脑海里?


晚安!

vaccum

23/5/2009 11点25分

今天,我的吸尘机吃了很多躲在电脑keyboard里面的灰尘哦!

这个月的电话费不知会是多少钱呢?

他的生日还有倒数3天,怎么办呢?



当着每一回事好了,哈哈!
好吧!就这么办吧!


但是,他会生我的气吗?
真讨厌!

university result

22/5/2009 morning

我又弄到他生气了。
我真的很差劲。
或许我像他那样,高兴的事情就会跟另一半讲;相反地,伤心的事情就不想说出来。
做人有时真的令人觉得很矛盾。


大学的成绩几时才会出炉?
我已等到很不耐烦了。
我想其他初中六的学生也跟我一样吧!
无论成绩是怎样,我都会坦然地去接受。



昌杰,你也要坚强噢!
一切顺其自然吧!
每一次都是我把你弄到不高兴,为什么会这样的?
这问题应该是出在我的身上。
差不多每一次跟你吵了,我都会哭。



我到底是为了什么而哭?
我是在发自己的脾气吗?
还是我变得爱哭了?
阿牛有唱过一首这样的歌:《哭》。
连我自己都不知道,更何况是肚里的一条虫呢?
真搞笑!

Thursday, May 21, 2009

我的爱

还有我在此想跟他说声:生日快乐,昌杰。

对不起,以前我所带给你的困扰,

以前我所带给你的悲伤;


谢谢你,你所带给我的惊喜,

你对我的宽容,

你对我的呵护,

你对我的支持,

你为我所做的一切。



认识你,就从朋友开始。

那个时候,我们相处得真好;

跟现在完全不一样,不一样的就是我们常会为了小事而吵起来。



小孩真好,没烦恼。

如果这世上没有信奉,但是世上的人会有人性,那该多好啊!

真矛盾的一个想法。

chinese

在一个不知不觉的命运安排下,我们俩从陌生变成相识。我们也从相识变成知己。也从知己变成现在的状况。试问这世界上有多少对情侣也都是这样开始的呢?哈哈哈!每对情侣一旦开始了,甜蜜与争吵,欢笑与悲伤只然而然就会找上门了。这早已是注定的了。

人生充满着喜怒哀乐。天真活泼的小孩,思想成熟的成人,经验丰富的老人家。日子一天一天地过去,岁数也一年一年地在增加。脸上的皱纹也比以前年轻时多了好多。虽然人去冲冲,岁月永不会为了我们而停下它们的工作,它们的滴答滴答声永远会在那不停地响着,除非是电池没电了。

我们一定要一起去。属于一个我们自己的地方。想念你,想见你,想梦见你,只要能默默地爱你,想你,那就已经足够了。。
爱要怎么说,说了怎么做。只要风能平,浪能静,我愿意陪你到天晴,天晴噢。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


即将要飞到远方去,心里想念的,牵挂的,都是你。


不知道几时才会见面,想念的,牵挂的,都是你。


希望你能体谅我的坏脾气,谅解我的哭泣。
我希望你能体谅到我的害怕,并不是我不要答你的问题,而是我就好像说不出话了。
我听见你在骂我,你在问我,你在讲我;但是我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我不像你那样,反应那么地快。

我好笨。
我就好像永远都不会做到你所要的要求。
我知道我永远都不是你心目中的那位女神。


还有我又忘了还钱给你。
他为我做了很多很多事情。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我真的觉得很对不起他。
他会想到我;而我呢?

我并不是一个属于A级的女朋友,80分都不到。
我想如果他看到这篇文章,也许他会对我说并没这会事。

wat ever it is, it's ok for me.
我伤了他很多次,我不想那样。

对不起。

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

GOD...............................WAT CAN I DO?

I dun't know y i suddenly think something nonesense..............
god...........................
y like that one?
ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone please help me...................

I prepared the gift already............
it's for him one...............................
i plan to give him today....................................... but....................

never mine....................
it's just a simple gift that I make it by myself...............................
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

mom................................. please .........................
it's wrong.......................

i felt tired.......................
Y it happen to me..............?


i knocked my head today.
a little bit pain............................................
i believe god........................................................
and this thinking is not good.

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat i can say and wat i can fell is sorry.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

17th of may 2009

18/5/2009

i bought it yesterday.
i started using my laptop today.
so complicated.............
please help me.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

WHY?

16/5/2009 8.00 p.m.

W.H.Y
There is one song ' W.H.Y' was sang by WANG LI HONG.
WE argue already.
haiz...................
again................
I dun't know how are we going to continue if we always keep in that way.
I mean how are we continue to live together if always like that .

he told me that it's good to have different views .
But, someimes we argue just because of this simple reason.
I worry about that.
Will it affect our relationship?
Please..........................
someone please answer my question if you have read this article,please.
Thank you.

We went through many things together.
Almost everytime,we have different views.

this time,he is angry with me.
He is really angry with me.
I asked my friends they have different views.
One say: don't bother him.
Another say: let's go with her next time.

Is it really my fault?
Am i always behave like that?
He ask me to think it clearly myself.
Then, he end the conversation with me already.

POH YEE, why you always like that?
Why you always can't make any success?
Why I can't be different with others girls?
Why i can't be the girl that he want?
Determined, confidence,rasional, think deeply, brave enough or others....................................

Are we really come from two different world?

No one can answer me.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

so boring.............................

can u tell me,
when i will know the local U information?
it's makes me feel so boring.
jz do the house work, listening to the music,watching tv, teaching, cooking( sometimes)..............
when i will get back to study? or not?
i rest for one month already.

wat else can i do by myself?
i still have to wait for one month again.

haiz.........................
recently, i recalled that i had did many wrong things before.
ex. lying, scold the old generations, killing the rat & cockroach in the bio lab n others.................................

y i will think about that?
is it bcoz i have so many time to waste?
OR bcoz of one book?
OK , i will try my best as i can.
i mean i will do the good things in my life.

thank you.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

do the good things in our life..........................

i read a book recently.
Let's me tell you wat is this book about even though i havent finish yet.

it tells us about:

'' we as human been should do many good things in our life,
Ex.help the people that they need our help,
visit the old people,
advise or invite others people to do the good things together .
why we should do all these?
actually, it's good for us.
y?
coz it can change our life n it also can help us to reduce the bad effect that may happen to us in present life or mayb next life.''
The Buddha Says: To understand your previous-life,
Look at what you have in your present-life,
To have a preview of your next-life,
Examine your daily act in this life.

I copy from this book :'' The Cause And Effect Sutra.''
thank you.........................

Sunday, May 10, 2009

i do many things 2day .............. so happy.............

wash toilet....
watering flower.........
and others..............................

I did the wrong thing already..................
I MAKED D PHONE CALL .
HAIZ..................................

Y I always did the wrong thing?
Do you know any ways that can help me to avoid from making any mistake?
If you know, please tell me.

thank you.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

i'm so happy

I must write this in this blog.
I hv no argue with him already.
HA ! HA!
6TH of MAY 2009 - he say that he will more sayang me.
n I must change my behaviour towards him.

Monday, May 4, 2009

iT HAPPEN again

Y it always happen????

????
haiz.................................................

Sunday, May 3, 2009

2nd MAY of 2009

I know the truth today.
He sent the SMS to wrong person.
He told me that he will change ,but he jz need some time.
I will give him time to change himself and I also will change my behaviour towards him.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

1st MEI of 2009

TodAy, I ask him 'where r u now?'
I ask him these type of question for three times.
He know me well.
He reply my SMS but he jz answer my question after I had ask him for 3 times.
Am I his girl friend?
WHY?
Y he can't type ' I'm in KL now'?
Am I disturb his holiday mood? or others?
Sometimes,I found tat when he is focusing on something , he will forget me (I think ).
E.X. : we went to TESCO, I walk slowly.He didn't ask me to walk bside him .It's OK. On the way we going back, We chat this , n he told me that i like to walk here, walk there as I like n also didn't walk along with him in TESCO there.

Is he really like that?
Am I thinking too much?

When I want to know where he is, he didn't answer me.
Then, i asked my friends. But, they also don't know.
I'm his girl friend but I don't know where he is now.
So funny , right?

Is GOD want me to know about that?
A simple question bring something that I don't like .
Y?
All boys will behave like that or just ONLY HIM?
I don't like that.
Is he like that ? I mean is he like when he ask question, but he didn't get the answer he want.
Is that my question so difficult to understand?

OK! FINE!
Assume that he is in the swimming pool there for whole day,Y he can't jz tell me tat he is in KL?
Tell me Y?
wat I want is jz d simple answer,but he failed to do that.

He always say that he want me to tell him everything BUT why he do that to me?

OK! iF like that, I wouldn't disturb him .
Then, he can enjoy his holiday.