HOLIDAY CUMING SOON...

I WILL TAKE D FLIGHT ON 23RD OF NOVEMBER 2009, MORNING....
FEEL HAPPY...............
NOW I ALREADY THINK WHICH DAY I SHOULD GO OUT TO KUCHING.....
EVEN I HAVENT SIT FOR D EXAM YET....
HOW CAN B LIKE TAT?
IM STILL HAVENT FINISH MY STUDY.....
I SAW MY HOUSEMATE PACKING ALL HER THINGS ALREADY.
SHE WILL SEND IT BACK TO SEMENANJUNG BY FLIGHT.
THEY WILL FINISH THEIR STUDY AFTER D EXAM....
N WILL CUM BACK ON AUGUST OF NEXT YEAR....

HAHA!
I WILL FINISH MY STUDY VERY SOON.
THREE YEARS .
NOW ALREADY ONE SEM.
STILL HAVE 5 SEM.

NEXT SEM, I THINK I WILL BUY D RICE COOKER TO COOK MY CHINESE MANISAN....
HAHA!
N OSO COOK MY FAVOURITE FOOD....

one SenTENce : ''enjoy ur life'' 26 / 10 / 09

today, i told him that i may choose sarawak company for my latihan industri in 2nd year..., d year break.

n do u know how he reply me?

''ENjoy Ur life''.
THAT'S ALL.
how dissapointed n desperate..
HAIZ.....
i got told him, but he say dunt angry
im not angry actually..
y he always say that im angry..
actually, im not happy...

how can b like that?
y sumtime he like to do the things tat i dunt like or feel nothing to say...
if last time, we were frnds i still can accept it.
but, now i cant!!!!!!!!!!!

y he still dunt know when i feel unhappy , upset, or angry or sick?
14 months...............

last time, he still read my blog ...
but now, i know he is bc than me...
no time to read it...

after d exam, will he still remember it?
will he read?
i hope that he understand wat im thinking about...........

not jz always say tat im always angry......


how can he treat me like that???????????
he say not to go out v that frnd , n jz now he call me n say sorry .
i ask him so many times say sorry for wat? .....until im anxient.....
then he baru answer me... tat time , i already ......
i jz feel like if one day he talked to me like tat next time, it may b a very serious things .....
now , i can describe my feeling.....
jz feel like unsafe...

i know tat im a girl tat want d answer quickly ,急性者。n he knew tat also
last time, i didnt answer answer his question, he felt angry.
n now , he didnt answer my question , i felt .....
n terbalik he scolding me....
he say : he answer me not bcoz i count d number for him to answer my question .
if he wan to answer , he will answer.
if not, he wouldnt answer me even i count until 100.
now, he is wrong.
n he still scolding me n say like tat.

in his mind, i jz a nobody....

9/10/09 BAZAAR OF FSGK,UNIMAS (2009)

TODAY IS LAST DAY FOR D BAZAAR ALREADY.

HE TAKE HIS TIME N GO THERE V ME.
D SPECIAL THING IS D ''TRANSFORMASI SHOW''

AT FIRST,HE ASK WANT 手链 OR NOT.
AFTER TAT, HE SAY TAT I COMPLAIN TAT HE DIDNT BUY IT FOR ME
N IT IS 珠链 .
i jz feel like ....
i dunt know how to express my feeling...
d cost is rm 10 or rm 15... i didnt listern carefully.n i jz say ''bu yao''.
im not sure y?
is it bcoz tat i wear it when i was young, n its telah rosak after one day if im not mistaken....
mayb tis give me an unsafe feeling....
or i didnt plan to buy it at first....
or im ''bu shi ying'' tat boy ask me to choose n then he pay?

or i think i prefer tat boy gv me d present without im knowing that?

my weekend trip (wushu HQ)

11/10/09

TODAY, we all go to wushu hq in kuching by UNIMAS bus.
we go there by taking d bus on 6.30a.m in BHEP .

WE WALK TO THERE BY WALKING V A FEW OF FRIENDS THAT STAY IN KOLEJ ALLAMANDA.
JUSTIN, LOUIS, JOHNY,YAN, LOKE ,SHUE TING, RICKEY,CHEW YUE,KAN JI SENG, YAN PING, YIN CHEW, ALLEN MOK , XIAO YANG ,FEDERICK, PATRICT AND ME.

WE HAVE A LOT OF DUTY:
1)REGISTER COUNTER,
2)TAKE D MARK PAPER FROM D JUDGES,
3) GONG PERSON,
4)BECOME D JUDGES,
5)BECOME D REFFERES
6) HELP D COMPETITORS TO WEAR D PROTECTER, HELMET, AND...................

WAT IS MY DUTY?
MY DUTY IS 2, 4 ,6.

EVERYONE IS TIRED
WE END OUR JOB ON 6PM SOMETHING.
BUT D UNIMAS BUS WILL COME N TAKE US ON ABOUT 7.30P.M
WE ALL HAVE DINNER TOGETHER IN D ''HONG KONG RESTAURANT''.

WE HAVE A LOT OF FUN IN THERE.
AT FIRST, SENIOR SAY FOOD TAKE AWAY.
BUT, THEY ORDER D FOOD N EAT THERE.
WAT A FUNNY THINGS THAT IS WE ''DA BAO'' OUR BBQ PORK RICE.
N ONE OF MY FRIEND ORDER ''TOMATO MEE''
SHE HAVE TO ASK D WAITRESS TO TAKE A BOWL FOR HER.

B4 THE FOOD IS COME, WE TAKE A LOT OF PHOTO.
N SENIOR YAN WET HIMSELF JZ TO BUY D BURGER.....

AFTER THAT, WE TAKE BUS N GO BACK TOGETHER TO UNIMAS .
WE TAKE PHOTO IN BUS ALSO.
LOOKS LIKE OUR RELATIONSHIP AMONG EACH OTHERS ARE MORE CLOSER.

HAHA!

BUT ,WAT IS D SAD THINGS IS HE GOT EXAM ON NEXT DAY, MONDAY.
N MADAM ALSO ASK US TO HELP HER ON 31/10/09 OR 1/11/09.
NO ONE OF D JUNIOR WANT TO COME ALSO.
COZ WE WILL HAVING D FINAL EXAM ON D 2/11/09.

WAT A BUSY LIFE.................
HAHA!

IM SURE THAT I WILL GO OUT V MY FRIENDS AFTER D FINAL EXAM .
HAHA!
JZ GO OUT N PLAY V MY FRIENDS AROUND D KUCHING CITY.
IM A FAILURE IF I DIDNT WENT OUT N LOOK AROUND D KUCHING CITY EVEN THOUGH STAY IN HERE FOR ABOUT SIX MONTH.

NOT LIKE HIM.....WENT OUT LAST TIME V D SENIOR N ALL D FIRST YEAR STUDENT ALSO DUNT WANT TO BRING ME OUT......

JZ BCOZ OF HIS FRIEND 'S ONE SENTENCES...........
TIS MAKE ME ANGRY.....
AND TAT DAY IS A RAINY DAY , JZ LIKE MY FEELING......
THEN HE THINK FOR A WHILE AND ASK ME TO GO OUT .
TAT TIME, I DUNT HAVE ANY MOOD TO GO OUT ANYMORE
Y I SAY 'NO' LAST TIME JZ BCOZ IM ANGRY?

IM SO STUPID............!!!!!!
I SHOULD GO OUT TAT TIME BUT SIT V OTHERS FRIENDS.................

NOW, WHEN I THINKING BACK , I ALSO FEEL ANGRY.......

AND ONE TIME ALSO, HE SUDDENLY CALL ME BEFORE THE LAST DAY OF RAYA
HOLIDAY.....

THEN, I SAY OK.....
I THOUGH I WILL GO OUT TO KUCHING BY RENTING D CAR.

SADLY, D ANSWER IS NO......
HAIZ..... I THINKING TOO MUCH....
ACTUALLY, HIS SENIOR GO OUT TO THE NEAREST SHOP TO CUT HAIR N BUY THINGS ONLY......

SAME TO HIM ALSO.......HAIZ.............
I HOPE THAT I WILL GO OUT V HIM N PLAY HAPPILY BUT I FOUND THAT ITS DIFFICULT....

WHY WHEN I WAS A FRIEND FOR HIM IS DIFFERENT?
WHY WHEN IM A GXXXXXXX FOR HIM IS DIFFERENT?

FRIENDS WAS BETTER LAST TIME.....
BUT, NOW.............ADD SOMEMORE

3 more weeks then i will exam.

everyone is bc for their exam.
n oso assignment

2/9/09

2/9/09
today, we argue.
jz bcoz of d kolej problem......
no one is there for me 2 talk out n cry.

3/9/09 (saturday)
i went 2 my frnd's house n look around.
kolej cempaka n oso d kolej bunga raya.
today is mooncake day....
i miss d bbq tat i enjoy in my grandmom's house.
i miss my ''bing pei yue bing '', ''yan cai gao yue bing'',.......

but its ok, coz my frnd got belanja ME enjoy d mooncake tat they bring from their hometown.
one is from sabah, KL, N OSO SibU (SARAWAK ).

haha!
now , BARU I FEEL HOW CHAM A PERSON GO THROUGH A MOONCAKE DAY.
N OSO HOW BEAUTIFUL D MOON IS.....
COZ I WILL STAY IN ROOM USUALLY AT NIGHT .
i got a sms from my father hp.
i think it should b type by my sister.
haha!
when i call back, u guess wat my father say.
he ask me : is there got any language class?
i say : yes .
he say : then try 2 learn it.


4/9/09 (sunday )
2day, UNIMAS will organize D MOONCAKE FESTIVAL for US .
I bought d ticket already during d RAYA holiday.
but, sadly, he got exam on monday.
mayb jz can come for about 15 minutes 2 get d attendance coz we will got d cop kolej.
then, he will go back 2 study.

2/10/09 今天不高兴

时间过得真是快。
还有两个月就可以回家了。在这里，真得很闷。
TITAS的成绩出了，考得很差。
幸好还有一班朋友陪我聊天。
大家一起释放压力，一起不高兴。
他们是一班很不错的朋友，GRACE，MISSEGG，PEGGY，TING。。。。。
可惜我们都不同FACULTY，也就是说不同科系。
放假在他们那，也过得很轻松。
大家一起在谈天，唱歌， 上网，用餐 ，吃宵夜等等。。。真逍遥自在。
但是，当然也不忘了做功课。
HEHE。

小孩真好，没有压力。
没办法回到以前，只好加油咯。

25/09/09

2day, we go 2 'EVERISE MARKET'.
WE TAKE D BUS N WALK OUT 2 THERE.
THEN, WE HV A LUNCH V HIS SENIOR ALTOGETHER.
WE GO 2 MARKET N BUT D THINGS FIRST.

BUT, JZ BCOZ NOW IS RAYA HOLIDAY.
D UNIMAS BUS JZ FOLLOW D SUNDAY TIME TABLE......
WE TAKE D BUS ON 12P.M

WE HV 2 TAKE D BUS ON 2P.M.
jz BCOZ HE WANT TO CUT HIS HAIR, D SHOP IS CLOSED ,N D TIME IS SHORT.

HE DECIDE NOT 2 CUT HIS HAIR.
N HE IS ANGRY ALSO
N HE SAY TAT I WASTE TIME 2 LOOK AROUND D HAIR CLIP.

THIS TIME, I JZ KEEP QUIET.
WE WALK BACK 2 U 2 WAIT FOR D BUS.
ALL D SENIOR IS THERE ALREADY.
THEY ALSO MISS D BUS.

AT LAST,
WE RENT A CAR FOR ONE HOUR.
IT JZ COST RM6.
ONE PERSON COST RM1.

ON D WAY WAITING FOR D CAR, HE IS NOT ANGRY ANYMORE.
ON TAT TIME, WE OK ALREADY.
THEN , WE GO 2 OUTSIDE AGAIN.N I JZ FOLLOW
FINALLY, HIS HAIR IS CUT ALREADY.


THE END.

24/9/09

yesterday,we hv a deal tat a beautiful dress on d night of d ceremony of mry.
hehe!

DURING HARI RAYA WEEK

21/9/09

today, i go to d HQ.
WAT IS HQ?
LET ME TELL U.
HQ IS A PLACE WHICH LOCATED IN KUCHING.
ITS A PLACE FOR D WUSHU MEMBER TO LEARN D NEW THINGS.

HAHA!
ACTUALLY, ITS VERY TIRING.
START FROM MORNING UNTIL 5.00P.M.

N WE CATCH D CHANCE TO GO TO D EVERISE MARKET.
WE BUY SO MANY THINGS ............
HAHA!

SO HAPPY.

BT ONE THING :

ALL PEOPLE R WAITING FOR US.
HEHE!

ALL OF THEM R SURPRISE N THEY SAY :
WOW! CELEBRATE RAYAKAH?

HAHA!

WE ALSO TAKE D CHANCE TO BUY D ''CHA XIAO FAN '' TO FULFILL OUR STOMACH.
HEHE!

WAT A LONG TIME DIDNT EAT PORK...............


TODAY is wednesday.

very boring.
i jz finished watching d ‘败犬女王’.
this drama is good.
it make me cry.
mayb i think im d actress in this drama .
she act as a 33 years old girl in this drama.
she take d first prize in every competition........


NOW, i hv 2 study for my general genetics.
coz it got quiz
n it oso make me confusing.
this subject make me feel blur.

n luckily d exam got multiple choice
bt it will change to mostly d subjective question on d next sem...........

wat a memorable day

11 / 8 /08 first starting
5 / 9 /08 siK
15 /10 /08 SPECIAL GIFT


24 / 2 /09 1ST :)

13 / 9 /2009 ( sunday)

jz finish d test on yesterday
haiz.......2 test come together
so tired
dunt know wat im reading about
long time didnt take test.......blur
but its still ok.
i hope i can pass
jz like no confidence at all

6 / 9 / 2009

today, we go to Kuching on morning.

at first, we plan to go there by bus on 10.00a.m.
after tat, d bus doesnt stop. we wait again.

at last, we go to Kuching by van.
one person RM4.00.

1st place : indian street.
second place: water front.
3rd place : food court.
4th place : shopping centre (ARETRAL HOUSE , PAKSON , TUN JUGAH .)

WE JZ WALK AROUND THEM.
ALMOST 5 P.M, WE WAIT D UNIMAS BUS N GO BACK.


THIS ONE DAY TRIP I FEEL STILL OK.
I EAT D ''SHAO BAO'' N ALSO D CURRY PUFF.
HAHA!

YA HOO ( CAN GO OUT N PLAY 2MORO)

HAHA!
FEEL SO HAPPY NOW EVEN I HAVENT GO OUT ALSO.
CAN GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS N ALSO HIM.

CAN GO TO D NEW PLACES.......
HEHE!

29th of August 2009 (field trip 1)

SARAWAK MUSEUM TRIP
we go there by bus on 9.ooa.m.
i sit with Sherry Sim.
We chat a lot.

after we have reaching there,one of the view is so beautiful.
i take some photo with my friends as sweet memorable.
ha ha
im feel so happy.
em..........i think jz boc i can go out from UNIMAS n look for new places................
HEHE!

after d second bus arrive, we go inside together.
we go 2 d aquarium first, then we go into 2 d building that have a lot of preserved specimens.
Ex. snakes ,turtle, fish, molluscs, birds, monkeys, n .................

D purpose is for us to recognize the animal, n d features on their bodies.
got foreigner there also.

After that, we gather outside of d building.
n some of them buy some fruit to eat, im also buy d honeydew .jz rm 1.00. so cheap..................

then, we go to d another museum jz by crossing d brige, so near.........
hehe!

so happy...........
AT FIRST, all of us saw d beautiful design of d crocodile.

there have a lot of memorable things for us to buy.......
so beautiful n nice...........
inside, there have a lot of drawings .
one of d picture is the jungle............
n i take picture also.

in d first floor, got a lot of history thing..........
so excellence..........
HA HA.....................

THEN WE GO BACK ON 1.00P.M, BUT D ANOTHER BUS DRIVER IS NOT THERE.
SO, FIVE OF US GO BACK BY D TUTOR'S CAR.
BOON YEE, LISA, YEE WOON ,SHAMILAH N ME (POH YEE).

AFTER GOING BACK, WE HAVE TO DO D PRATICAL.

HAIZ...............
20 SPECIES............
TAKE ME SO LONG TIME............ N MANY HOURS TO FINISH IT..............

HAPPY INDEPENDENT DAY,POH YEE.

31st of August 2009

im come back again............
these few days no any activities..........
jz d homework n also study............
didnt go out also..............
but, its still ok for me.............

holiday's of first sem in UNIMAS.

now , still got H1N1.
HAIZ..............
i jz sit in my house n didnt go any where..............

18/8/09,im join d live show in teater.
D SHOW NAMED 'SUARA SISWA' live in RTM1.
SO TENSION.
coz i hv 2 ask d question during d live show......................
actually, i join this jz want 2 get d cop kolej...........
wushu class on next day............
thursday, i join d decoration kemerdekaan for my kolej................ also 2 get d cop.

but, yesterday 22/8/09 .
all d malay start puasa.
my college is very different.
got organize d bazzar for us.
many malay food.......kuih-muih, nasi kelabu, roti mutapa,..............
delicious......................n it will maintain like this for a month............
wa haha!!!!!!!!!!!!! got fresh fruit also..............
others kolej dunt hv any activities at all.

i buy d food for him. n we eat together.
hi hi...............

16/08/2009 night

he made me angry n felt lonely.............
scolded by me also.
at last, he came to my college n celebrated d birthday in red cafe .
his roommate also birthday today.
from ipoh also.
wat a surprise!
his other friends also came n celebrate...............
haha haha!

16/08/2009

2day is a special day for me.

2day is my birthday.
this year very special coz
im in sarawak not in ipoh.

at least, my dear still here with me.
im 20 now.

bcome older n older.

HAHAHA.

'HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO U,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PHOEBE,
祝你永远快乐。'

11/8/2009 no water supply n no electricity

today, so cham..........
all d kolej n all d bloks dunt have d water supply n no electricity...........
make us all suffer.
until at night, same situation also.
but,water still come by a little bit.

8/8/09 - 9/8/09 ORIENTATION OF FSTS(BIOTECH)

TODAY, ALL OF US WAKE UP EARLY TO WAIT IN THE BUS STOP OF FSTS.
WAIT FOR A LONG TIME ......................
THEN, BARU START THE TRIP.
3 BUSES .

IT TAKES US 2 HOURS TO REACH THERE.
SIAR BEACH RESORT.
SOUND GOOD.
BUT, THERE LOOKS LIKE KAMPUNG.
WHEN I REACH THERE I FELT REGRET.

I WANT TO GO BACK.
BUT, I FELT OK LATER.

SENIOR PREPARE THE FOOD FOR US.
THEN ,WE PLAY THE GAMESW BY GROUP.

AT NIGHT, ALL OF US PRESENT OUR GROUP 'S DRAMA OR ADVERTISMENT.
HAVING FUN ALSO AT THAT TIME.

BUT, I GOT A CALL FROM HIM.
HE IS SICK AT THAT TIME.

N IM AT OUTSIDE.
CANT HELP HIM.
N CANT ACCOMPANY HIM TO CLINIC.
HAIZ.......................

LUCKILY,I GOT A CALL FROM HIM AGAIN.
N HE IS OK ALREADY.

DURING D ADVERTISEMENT, I DANCE IN FRONT OF ALL D STUDENT WITH MY OTHERS GROUP MEMBERS .
HA HA!

MY GROUP NAME IS ESPADA.
WE ALL SLEEP ON D FLOOR AFTER D SHOW.

NEXT DAY, WE ALL HV 2 WAKE UP EARLY.
WE DO D EXERCISE IN D EARLY MORNING.
THEN, WE PLAY D STATION GAME BY RUNNING HERE N THERE.

THEN ,WE HV D LUNCH 2GETHER.
NEXT,WE ALL PREPARE WELL TO GO BACK TO UNIMAS.

AFTER THAT,I REACH UNIMAS N PLAN TO SEE HIM.
BUT, ITS TOO LATE.
SO, I HAVE TO C HIM ON NEXT DAY.

IM GLAD THAT HE IS OK NOW.

PICNIC OF KOLEJ ALLAMANDA.

1/8/2009

今天，得早起身。
这个PICNIC是专给ALLAMANDA的学生。
我们go there by bus.

THERE LOOKS NICE。
THE JPK OF KOLEJ ALLAMANDA PREPARE THE LUNCH FOR US。
THERE MAKES ME FEEL BEETER N SO COOL。

我在那儿拍了很多照片。
但是，没有DIGITAL CAMERA .
CANT PUT IT ON THE PICTURE.
SO SAD.

THERE GOT BUKIT SANTUNBONG .
SO BEAUTIFUL.

星期五晚上

31/7/2009 晚上

今天，我终于可以和他一起出街了。
还有他的朋友们。

其实，只是出去吃顿晚餐。
但是，我们都互相吃对方所点的晚餐。
感觉还蛮好的。
呵呵！！

我点的是CHICKEN CORDON BLEU。
他点的是GRILLED CHICKEN MUSHROOM.
还有的就是CHICKEN LAKSANEA..........................

HEHE!!!!
过后，我们就回家去了。

GOOD NIGHT.

FIRST TRIP IN SARAWAK WITH FRIENDS

今天，我跟我在KOLEJ ALLAMANDA初认识的朋友一起出去SARAWAK的地方玩。
10.00A.M. TAKE CAR IN THE RED CAFÉ OF KOLEJ ALLAMANDA.
THEN, WE FIND THE WAY TO SHOPPING CENTRE,BOULIVEAD.
IT TAKES US 2 HOURS TO THAT PLACE.

过后，我们就迫不急待地去选购我们所要的日常用品。
第一次去这里的百货公司，东西方在哪儿？在哪个方向？
我完全不知道。我们在那待了很久，才去KFC 吃午餐。

过后，我们就很兴奋地离开那个地方。
从这一刻开次，寻方游戏就真式地开始了。。。。。。。。。。这个游戏使我们在KUCHING兜了很多圈子。

但是，我们最终都到达了UNIMAS。
ON THE WAY GOING BACK，我们问了很多路人，包括州议员，警察叔叔，老伯伯，老板等等。。。。。。。

途中，我们还闹出不少笑话。

为什么会那样的？

就快一个月了。

时间真快。

每次要跟他一起出去，每一次都不成事。

已经是第三次了。每次都会有临及事情发生。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

说起繁忙的时间表，那就是每个星期的星期二和星期四。

从早上八点一直到下午五点，现在还在适应着这两天繁忙的两天。

我的这一科科系，很少人会互相帮助除了我所认识的那一班朋友，但是他们都是来自kolej TARS.

跟我的KOLEJ离很远。

他们会互相照顾对方。

我在这还好，认识了几位谈得来的朋友。

虽然不同的课程，但是我们偶尔也会一起谈天。

分享我们的高兴趣事和烦恼的事情。

过了这个SEM，我到底要不要申请搬去别的KOLEJ 呢？

要不要申请去他的KOLEJ呢？

起初是想要，但是........................................

算了，船到桥头自然直。

AIYO，还有很多NOTES还没读。

GAMBATEH ,KHONG............................

晚上的休息时间。（18/7/09）

昨晚，无聊的时候，还好有朋友跟我聊了一段时间。

空闲的时候，偶尔打通电话给老朋友或者家人，感觉真好 。

现在，我发现我已经慢慢可以适应到这里的环境了。

恭喜！恭喜！恭喜！

在 UNIMAS (PERTANDINGAN KAYAK) 的时候

18/07/09

刚才我才发现原来他有向我的其中一位好朋友倾诉他的烦恼。
他所谓的烦恼就是我。
很好笑吧！
他并没有在我的面前提起她。为什么我是最后一个人知道这件事？
不对！
应该是要恭喜他找到一位跟她同想法的人，不像我那样。
如果他认识我的好朋友在先，他们会在一起吗？


我真的是这么糟吗？也是啦！
看来这段时间我都不要去烦他了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我需要停下打电话给他的坏习惯了。
在他的眼里，我什么事情都须要烦到他。我真的是一个井底之蛙！
在他的眼里，我做的什么事都是错的。
在他的眼里，是我做错事情，但是就是由他来道歉。
是！我承认我是一个急性者，我也是脾气暴燥。


为什么我会变成这样的？
如他所说的，成事不逐，败事有余。

以前的我去了哪里？
天不怕，地不怕。
做事有主张。
现在的我…………………………………………
他跟我的做事方法不一样，我知道这样难免会让我们吵起来。
就如今天那样。

IM A LITTLE GIRL.............

今天是7月11日。晴天。


我在UNIMAS 已经两个星期了。
在大学里的生活很不一样，我想我的家，我的书房，我的收音机，我家的电视，还有我的铁马。。。。。。。。。。。。。

妈，爸，我在这里好闷，除了看NOTES之外，跟其他的种族谈天，洗衣。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我能做什么？

我现在明白爸爸当时在MALDIVES做工的情形了。当时，爸爸常常打电话回家跟我们谈天，就是因为一个“想”。
想家，想我们。

其他朋友都以为我今天会出去玩。他们（COURSEMATES）约我，我都退了。他们现在都已经在外头了，我认识的人，他们都走了，他们都有节目。
来到一个陌生的地方，又不能到处走，又不熟这里的地方。
又没有人陪伴，感觉很糟糕！好辛苦！好怕！

AT LEAST ,THERE GOT SOMEONE FOR ME TO TALK TO.
BUT, THERE ARE NO ONE FOR ME TO TALK TO.
IF GOT, WE HAVE GO TO ONE PLACE TOGETHER, THEN WE BARU CAN TALK.

我不喜欢这里，这里很陌生，生病了要看医生，又要KAD MATRIKS. KAD MATRIKS 到现在都还没拿到。


这里时常下雨，手机就要关掉。
我喜欢怡保，我的家乡。食物好吃，交通方便。


虽然我有跟朋友一起来UNIMAS， 但是我们的科系都不一样，地方也不一样。
朋友的一句话可以立刻影响他的想法。
我根本算不了什么。但是算了吧！
双子座的人都是那样的？又或者是他是那样的？
我很羡慕嘉仪和盛坚。
外人可以看得出，他们都很合得来，从性格上还有他们的脾气。


一个人在那坐着吃饭，原来是这样的感觉。好孤单。。。。。。。。。。。。
他已离我越来越远了。他有他的朋友，他的自由和他的思想。
我希望他能做他喜欢的事情，只要他跟我说声：还我自由或者任由我。
我就会放开他的手。我不想给他压力，不想给他麻烦，但是偏偏就相反。


就如GU WEI SIANG 所讲的那样，我什么都不会，就如一个井底之蛙那样。什么都需要依靠他。
跟他在一起，我真的觉得自己什么都不会，尤其是电脑方面和电话。
很差劲！


对他而言，我时常都没有用我的脑袋去想东西。
什么都没有去想。
危险，应不应该也没有去想。
做女生，做到好像我这样，很好笑吧！
对吗？
还会因为这样而时常被他骂了一顿。
我真的很难相处吗？
还是我太笨了？
对他而言，答案：是。


在这里如果顺利的话，还要待多三年。
三年后的我会是怎样的呢？
会不会变得不爱讲话了？差不多每次回到房间都是一个人，我喜欢以前，在怡保的家，有弟妹陪伴，有人可以吵架，那种感觉真好。
但是，现在有时候， 自己回到房里，就好像上次那样自己会哭出来，我好想要有一个伴来讲话，来沟通..................................

I MISS MY HOMETOWN，I LOVE TO TALK TO SOMEONE.
BUT,THERE IS NOBODY THERE.
EVERYONE IS BUSY OUTSIDE AND INSIDE ALSO.

我是个可怜虫（怡保）

a few days

暂时这两个星期， 我好想住在一个不同的环境 来让我好好的透透气。

待在家里就快闷了。
我好累，好无聊。
有谁会懂我的心情呢？哪又会有几人？
全部人都会有他们的节目，他们的计划，大家都在各忙各的。
我真想在一个公园里呼吸，好想躺在大自然中，不用怕有人来打扰，就像那天一样，30/5/2009。
虽然不是在草地上，但躺在他的身上也是一种舒服和自在。
好舒服，不知大学里会不会有这样的地方呢？有很多树木，花朵，桌椅，一大片绿油油的草地。还有要有屋檐的，那就prefect了。

无论他喜欢与否，我觉得他和我是个不同世界的人。
我知道这世上有很多人，他们的想法都不一样。
他是个外向人，而我呢？ 我就是个内向人。
是因为我的不便，而把我变成内向人？是我不够大胆去接触其他人？还是我一直都是那样？
That’s a question.

不同世界的人，做起朋友来， 会比较随和吗？是因为没有约束的关系，所以会比较地自在谈起来？

至于不同世界的人，做起情人来，会不会就好像我和他那样呢？是因为感情，所以才会因为一些意见不合而吵起来吗？这样吵，会伤感情吗？ （我真想知道）
也许这两个星期，我都不要打电话给他了。就当着是冷静吧！
有这么的一首歌：《妥协》。
这首歌听起来，感觉还真不错。
但是，这世上…………………………..

不，是我固执，是我低估自己，是我不认输。是我什么都不想去学，就如他所说的那样，一直依赖着他。

Phoebe, wake up. 他并不可能什么事都会清楚地教你。就如妈妈所说的，人一生出来，什么都不会，须要学习。而我呢？ 我就开始学怎样煎鱼。因为怕油伤到眼睛，所以我也因此想出一个办法了。我很好笑吧！

我今天add了不少朋友。希望他们还记得我是谁。

今天，也看到朋友在 friendster 里面写的 留言。他是不是在指我呢？如果是的话，我只能说对不起。




今天，感觉很差。怎么办？
跟你们说个小笑话吧！
我跟妈妈说：“如果有一个很大的草地，那儿种了很多树，树阴下有石桌与石椅，有河，有桥，另外一边种了很多花朵，还有做体操的东西。”

你们可以想象到吗？ 那多美啊！ 多么的清新。妈妈却说外婆的菜园。
真搞笑啊！
反而，我跟弟妹说，我的弟弟却能正确地说出我曾去过那个公园的名字。
很惊讶吧！

如果明天将出街改去爬山，爬到山顶，愉快地大声叫喊，将自己的闷气给“吐”出来，那该多好呀！
在家里已经待了6个星期，差不多天天都对着这四副墙，重复做同样的东西。我向妈妈complain,妈妈叫我去KL；去叔叔那儿帮手；去外婆的菜园帮忙；又或者去大姑那儿帮手。我问妈妈还有别的idea吗？

跟妈妈说了明天出街后，打电话给他，告诉他。
就是一句“随便”， 他就说我，叫我不要说气话！



5/6/2009

What happen to me recently?
When I want somebody with me, to chat with me.
But,there is nobody is suitable.
When I want to be alone, there are a lot of people there.
I don’t know.
今天，原本是要去打球的，却变成去爬山。
一个人在走，虽然觉得有点怕。但是，幸好路上遇到有人。
昨天，跟妈妈顶嘴了。
今早在家看了一部movie.
去到stadium,却想进又不想进。
就改plan,去了爬山。


回到家，还跟他吵架。
我知道他很累。
去了游泳，还去打球，真的辛苦你了。
Im sorry.
全部人只会说我的不好，这样就跟妈妈吵起来了，我也不想谈了。
为什么，今天在外面不会将全部给哭出来？不把全部的闷气给“吐”出来。
不，是我的问题。
没有一个good listener.
就如他所说的一样，我现在的抵抗力，比其他人低了4倍。
好惨哦！

31/5/2009 下午

今天，他打电话给我。
原来，他已看到我放在blog里的article.
他还问我要不要一起去打badminton.

唉…………………………………………
为何？
但是，他是出自于一番好意的。

原来，一切所发生的事情都是一场误会。现在，已经解决了。
但是，都是因为这一件事，它带给我一个想法。
他说的对，人有时是自私的。

他要我把blog里的名字给改掉，but I say no.


RAINBOW代表着七种颜色：红，橙，黄，绿，蓝，靛，紫。
红：活跃。
橙：活力。
黄：高兴。
绿：精灵。
蓝：悲伤。
靛：好奇。
紫：灰心。
而我们的人生就是充满着这七种颜色。

真糟糕！这两个星期，我该怎么过？
哈哈，也许这两个星期，我都会一直要在blog里写稿了。
真无聊。

槟城大学的成绩已出炉了，我还要在家里等待。他们被录取的学生也可以开始准备了。他们也可以放下他们的心头大石了。

在家里已经过了大概一个月半的时间，shopping, cooking, chatting, 都已过了。

5x6= 30/5/2009

30/5/2009 晚上
今天，他载我一起去买东西。
过后，我们还一起去公园。
在那静静地坐着，这根本不是他的作风。
因为他是一个非常好动的小孩，不对应该是说好动的青少年才对。
或许他看到我不高兴，所以也就只好在那陪着我吧。（I THINK）

我都不知道我今天怎么了，或者他并不明白为何我会那样的想，或者他并不了解我的感受。
很多或者了呀！

该怎么办？我突然觉得我真的好想大哭一场，眼泪都已流了出来。
今早，他跟我说他已中了SAMAN，我想糟糕了，以后等我做工才换给他好了。

当我们提起电话费，他也谈起他之前的电话费，我就只好不出声了。
我好像。。。。。。。。。。连我自己都不会形容，如果不是电话费，他也不会跟他家人吵架了。

他也不会给他姐姐说他乱花钱。

他刚才又打电话给我。
叫我早点休息。
还有原来大学的成绩是在六月的第三个星期出炉。

我想要去走山，想要去打球，想要去玩水，想要去逛街，想要去别的地方，想要去看新的风景。

我真的有很多个好想，但是并不能。以我的年纪，我还需要家人的同意。

还有，就是因为我是一个女生，不可以时常都往外跑。
反而，爸爸叫我去拉他的二胡。
至于那些钱，我会迟点才还给他的。
我想我太罗嗦了，什么事都提出来。
是不是有点闷？

现在，已是凌晨早上0.12 分了。

为什么他申请了这个blog account 又不用的？
我想知道。
好了，再见。


《心情》

它时好时坏，
无人能控制它，
除了自己。

它是受不同的人，
不同的事，
不同的环境所影响。

它属于每一个人，
每一个人也拥有着它。
永远都离不开对方。

它是一样多么奇妙的东西，
也就是因为有了它，
人生才会变得精彩。

朋友的生日

28/5/2009 night

今天，他对我说了一番话。

这一番话跟他之前所说的完全不一样。

妈妈说的对，他也说他的道理。

我该怎么办？
现在，我只能选择等待。
我真的是一个笨小孩。

当妈妈问我什么事时，我不敢说，她还以为我在跟他吵架。

爸妈都叫我专心读书。
这件事过后……………………………………………….

我想通了，就算结果是如何，这全部都是我一手造成的。
是我自己，这与他无关的。

我跟他，我想我们也无法回到像从前那样。

那样地要好了。这全部都已变成我跟他之间的回忆了。
我............................................

自己的身体状况都已不好了，还想着在读书前可以在家里多补补身子，不然以后就得等到放假才可以多补。

但是，我现在都喝了很多冰水。
这不能怪他，也与他无关。

但是，他已算还好了，至少他有在旁陪着我。

我是指精神上。

Y I 称赞他呢？ 还是在自我安慰我自己本人没看错人呢？

我不懂！

28/5/2009

今天已经是28/5/2009了。
已经两天了。
我想应该没事的。

爸爸说的有道理，以前读书挨夜，为的就是考好成绩。

当天

26/5/2009

今天，我在出门前，在蛋糕上刻了4个心形和一个像是玫瑰花的图案。

还在出门前才在卡上写上祝贺语。
很好笑吧！

他跟我说他晚上的时候看了那张卡很久，很高兴，高兴到睡不着觉。


昌杰，没事的，一定没事的。

前夕

生日的前夕

25/5/2009

今晚，我无意中看到5s1的CD，PREFECT’S PICTURE , N EVEN THE PICTURE OF THE FORM 5 PARTY.

IT IS SO MEMORABLE.

WAT A SWEET MEMORY.

初中五的照片就仅仅只有那么的一张.

HAIZ………………….

SO FUNNY.

为什么照片多数是他呢？
难道是我叫他save into CD ?
I CAN’T REMEMBER。
时间过得真快。

有时候，我觉得好累；有时候，我觉得很高兴。
高兴时，时间过得特别快；烦恼的时候，我就会觉得非常地痛苦与无奈。

为何呢？
我今年还未到20岁。
我们的路还很遥远哦！
我希望 时间可以过得快点，因为时间过得快点就代表我们过着忙碌又快活的生活。

我的这个想法很幼稚吗？

可能是我得空没事做的关系吧！（I THINK）

再过13分钟就是他的生日了，他会打电话给我吗？
还是他在等我的电话？

如果他在等我的电话，或许他会失望，因为电话费的关系。
Im sorry.
6 分钟。
5分钟。
4分钟。
3 分钟。
2 分钟。
1 分钟。
0．
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHANG KIT,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU………………………………………….

mom's birthday

24/5/2009

今天，我们在家跟妈妈一起庆祝生日。

一起吃cheese cake 。

其实，明天才是她的生日，我们提早跟她庆祝。

因为爸爸明早就要去工作了。



为什么？
为什么还是一直出现在我的脑海里？


晚安！

vaccum

23/5/2009 11点25分

今天，我的吸尘机吃了很多躲在电脑keyboard里面的灰尘哦！

这个月的电话费不知会是多少钱呢？

他的生日还有倒数3天，怎么办呢？



当着每一回事好了，哈哈！
好吧！就这么办吧！


但是，他会生我的气吗？
真讨厌！

university result

22/5/2009 morning

我又弄到他生气了。
我真的很差劲。
或许我像他那样，高兴的事情就会跟另一半讲；相反地，伤心的事情就不想说出来。
做人有时真的令人觉得很矛盾。


大学的成绩几时才会出炉？
我已等到很不耐烦了。
我想其他初中六的学生也跟我一样吧！
无论成绩是怎样，我都会坦然地去接受。



昌杰，你也要坚强噢！
一切顺其自然吧！
每一次都是我把你弄到不高兴，为什么会这样的？
这问题应该是出在我的身上。
差不多每一次跟你吵了，我都会哭。



我到底是为了什么而哭？
我是在发自己的脾气吗？
还是我变得爱哭了？
阿牛有唱过一首这样的歌：《哭》。
连我自己都不知道，更何况是肚里的一条虫呢？
真搞笑！

我的爱

还有我在此想跟他说声：生日快乐，昌杰。

对不起，以前我所带给你的困扰，

以前我所带给你的悲伤；


谢谢你，你所带给我的惊喜，

你对我的宽容，

你对我的呵护，

你对我的支持，

你为我所做的一切。



认识你，就从朋友开始。

那个时候，我们相处得真好；

跟现在完全不一样，不一样的就是我们常会为了小事而吵起来。



小孩真好，没烦恼。

如果这世上没有信奉，但是世上的人会有人性，那该多好啊！

真矛盾的一个想法。

chinese

在一个不知不觉的命运安排下，我们俩从陌生变成相识。我们也从相识变成知己。也从知己变成现在的状况。试问这世界上有多少对情侣也都是这样开始的呢？哈哈哈！每对情侣一旦开始了，甜蜜与争吵，欢笑与悲伤只然而然就会找上门了。这早已是注定的了。

人生充满着喜怒哀乐。天真活泼的小孩，思想成熟的成人，经验丰富的老人家。日子一天一天地过去，岁数也一年一年地在增加。脸上的皱纹也比以前年轻时多了好多。虽然人去冲冲，岁月永不会为了我们而停下它们的工作，它们的滴答滴答声永远会在那不停地响着，除非是电池没电了。

我们一定要一起去。属于一个我们自己的地方。想念你，想见你，想梦见你，只要能默默地爱你，想你，那就已经足够了。。
爱要怎么说，说了怎么做。只要风能平，浪能静，我愿意陪你到天晴，天晴噢。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。


即将要飞到远方去，心里想念的，牵挂的，都是你。


不知道几时才会见面，想念的，牵挂的，都是你。


希望你能体谅我的坏脾气，谅解我的哭泣。
我希望你能体谅到我的害怕，并不是我不要答你的问题，而是我就好像说不出话了。
我听见你在骂我，你在问我，你在讲我；但是我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我不像你那样，反应那么地快。

我好笨。
我就好像永远都不会做到你所要的要求。
我知道我永远都不是你心目中的那位女神。


还有我又忘了还钱给你。
他为我做了很多很多事情。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

我真的觉得很对不起他。
他会想到我；而我呢？

我并不是一个属于A级的女朋友，80分都不到。
我想如果他看到这篇文章，也许他会对我说并没这会事。

wat ever it is, it's ok for me.
我伤了他很多次，我不想那样。

对不起。

GOD...............................WAT CAN I DO?

I dun't know y i suddenly think something nonesense..............
god...........................
y like that one?
ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
someone please help me...................

I prepared the gift already............
it's for him one...............................
i plan to give him today....................................... but....................

never mine....................
it's just a simple gift that I make it by myself...............................
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

mom................................. please .........................
it's wrong.......................

i felt tired.......................
Y it happen to me..............?


i knocked my head today.
a little bit pain............................................
i believe god........................................................
and this thinking is not good.

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat i can say and wat i can fell is sorry.

17th of may 2009

18/5/2009

i bought it yesterday.
i started using my laptop today.
so complicated.............
please help me.

WHY?

16/5/2009 8.00 p.m.

W.H.Y
There is one song ' W.H.Y' was sang by WANG LI HONG.
WE argue already.
haiz...................
again................
I dun't know how are we going to continue if we always keep in that way.
I mean how are we continue to live together if always like that .

he told me that it's good to have different views .
But, someimes we argue just because of this simple reason.
I worry about that.
Will it affect our relationship?
Please..........................
someone please answer my question if you have read this article,please.
Thank you.

We went through many things together.
Almost everytime,we have different views.

this time,he is angry with me.
He is really angry with me.
I asked my friends they have different views.
One say: don't bother him.
Another say: let's go with her next time.

Is it really my fault?
Am i always behave like that?
He ask me to think it clearly myself.
Then, he end the conversation with me already.

POH YEE, why you always like that?
Why you always can't make any success?
Why I can't be different with others girls?
Why i can't be the girl that he want?
Determined, confidence,rasional, think deeply, brave enough or others....................................

Are we really come from two different world?

No one can answer me.

so boring.............................

can u tell me,
when i will know the local U information?
it's makes me feel so boring.
jz do the house work, listening to the music,watching tv, teaching, cooking( sometimes)..............
when i will get back to study? or not?
i rest for one month already.

wat else can i do by myself?
i still have to wait for one month again.

haiz.........................
recently, i recalled that i had did many wrong things before.
ex. lying, scold the old generations, killing the rat & cockroach in the bio lab n others.................................

y i will think about that?
is it bcoz i have so many time to waste?
OR bcoz of one book?
OK , i will try my best as i can.
i mean i will do the good things in my life.

thank you.

do the good things in our life..........................

i read a book recently.
Let's me tell you wat is this book about even though i havent finish yet.

it tells us about:

'' we as human been should do many good things in our life,
Ex.help the people that they need our help,
visit the old people,
advise or invite others people to do the good things together .
why we should do all these?
actually, it's good for us.
y?
coz it can change our life n it also can help us to reduce the bad effect that may happen to us in present life or mayb next life.''
The Buddha Says: To understand your previous-life,
Look at what you have in your present-life,
To have a preview of your next-life,
Examine your daily act in this life.

I copy from this book :'' The Cause And Effect Sutra.''
thank you.........................

i do many things 2day .............. so happy.............

wash toilet....
watering flower.........
and others..............................

I did the wrong thing already..................
I MAKED D PHONE CALL .
HAIZ..................................

Y I always did the wrong thing?
Do you know any ways that can help me to avoid from making any mistake?
If you know, please tell me.

thank you.

i'm so happy

I must write this in this blog.
I hv no argue with him already.
HA ! HA!
6TH of MAY 2009 - he say that he will more sayang me.
n I must change my behaviour towards him.

iT HAPPEN again

Y it always happen????

????

haiz.................................................

2nd MAY of 2009

I know the truth today.

He sent the SMS to wrong person.

He told me that he will change ,but he jz need some time.

I will give him time to change himself and I also will change my behaviour towards him.

1st MEI of 2009

TodAy, I ask him 'where r u now?'
I ask him these type of question for three times.
He know me well.
He reply my SMS but he jz answer my question after I had ask him for 3 times.
Am I his girl friend?
WHY?
Y he can't type ' I'm in KL now'?
Am I disturb his holiday mood? or others?
Sometimes,I found tat when he is focusing on something , he will forget me (I think ).
E.X. : we went to TESCO, I walk slowly.He didn't ask me to walk bside him .It's OK. On the way we going back, We chat this , n he told me that i like to walk here, walk there as I like n also didn't walk along with him in TESCO there.

Is he really like that?
Am I thinking too much?

When I want to know where he is, he didn't answer me.
Then, i asked my friends. But, they also don't know.
I'm his girl friend but I don't know where he is now.
So funny , right?

Is GOD want me to know about that?
A simple question bring something that I don't like .
Y?
All boys will behave like that or just ONLY HIM?
I don't like that.
Is he like that ? I mean is he like when he ask question, but he didn't get the answer he want.
Is that my question so difficult to understand?

OK! FINE!
Assume that he is in the swimming pool there for whole day,Y he can't jz tell me tat he is in KL?
Tell me Y?
wat I want is jz d simple answer,but he failed to do that.

He always say that he want me to tell him everything BUT why he do that to me?

OK! iF like that, I wouldn't disturb him .
Then, he can enjoy his holiday.

SATURDAY

Today,I plan to see his mother.
But,unfortunately my mom scold me...............
Haiz............., waste my time to buy the fruit.
But, it's OK .
Her daughter come back to see her.
If I go today, I'm sure will feel embarrass.
Thanks, God.

At last, I solve my problem already.
Now, I feel so relaxing.

Maybe,I must make myself brave enough although something is happening.
PHOEBE, TRUST URSELF , U CAN MAKE IT BY URSELF,
U CAN MAKE IT WITH YOUR BELOVED.

PHOEBE, U CAN.
GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!
A long journey is waiting for you.Em.....Muak.................

A Good Day, but Feel Bad.( Part 1 )

2day,
I plan to make something special for him.
But y must today?
We argue alrealdy.I dunt know Y?
But, I found one thing, i.e.he sent an mail to his UTAR friend.
But,he told me that somethimes he jz SMS to her.
If jz SMS,then it is OK for me.
But MSN.........................................................
Am I thinking too much?
Am I jealous?
Or mayb he think tat this mail is good to let girls to know about it?
Haiz.............................
I'm tiring of all these.
Yesterday,one of my friends ask me one question.
She did'nt know that I had argue with him before.
I also don't know is my answer correct or not.
But, I know one thing.
All the couple will argue also.
I want to chat with my friend.
If I got car, I'm sure will drive the car to her house,to talk to her.
I'm tiring of all these.
I don't like this feeling.
After the STPM,we always argue.
I don't like to argue with him.
He say that I don't tell him something sometimes.
But,sometimes I also don't know want to tell him or not.
I'm confusing.
I don't want him to worry about me.
But, he always worry about me.

( FOR PART 2, PLEASE VIEW: simonchewck.blogspot.com )